The 2008 British short film “Lost and Found” is particularly inspiring for my current state of mind. Here are some quotations which address my current concerns very well.
First impressions are a funny thing and it’s always wise to take a moment to consider this when something new turns up on yours doorstep.
Now, anyone could be forgiven when faced with such an uninvited problem for choosing the easy way out. Then again some people just don’t have it in them to do anything other than the right thing.
So much for the best-laid plans as too often a small voice is not heard in a wider world! Yet when things aren’t going quite the way they should, it occurs to some that if something is worth doing it’s worth doing yourself.
Today, when I was riding a taxi, the driver was particularly chatty and he shared with me some of his experience when he was in the military service.
He was the personal driver for the regiment commander-in-chief. His complaints were that the commander were often late for his morning meetings, so he demanded his driver to be fast and furious on the road. The soldier also ran errands for the commander’s wife, accompanied her in shopping trips, carried bags, took the couple’s child to school and even wiped the ass for the kid. It must be a horrific experience for him and I told him I couldn’t imagine how I could survive if I were stuck in such a situation.
However, his days in the army were not completely miserable and hopeless. Using his privilege as the commander’s driver, he had many free meals and he ate mutton almost daily, free of charge. He also enjoyed venison confiscated from poachers, who shared their game with the soldiers — if the hunters killed two deer, the soldiers took one, if the hunter had one deer, the soldiers still took one — and the poachers could leave with impunity. I guess any miserable period of life can be brightened by confiscating something from the even weaker class.
Now I am almost sure that I can survive the miserable life as the commander’s driver, if there is endless supply of mutton for me. Why do people stay miserable? Because it is such satisfactions which keep people going.
Another story is the news about milk. Mengniu milk, which sports a slogan “We work for the health of mankind as a dairy producer” on its web site, is found today manufacturing carcinogenic milk. What an irony!
Another trusted local diary producer, Changfu Milk, which boasts in its advertisement that it has never been involved in the milk scandals, is reported by the media to have the same problem. I used to trust Changfu, and my son drinks its milk every day. Now I think I can not trust any food manufacturers in China. They have blood on their lips.
Is China a strong country? I guess you already know the answer.
I am feeling generous this year. Here is a list of donations I made:
- 500 Yuan (RMB) to someone with bone problems
- $35 to Wikipedia
- $5 to the theme maker of Rustic
If I earn more money next year, I will donate more.
There is always an inner voice, all too tumultuous and restless, tells me I need to do certain things to make my life livable. However, it would be erroneous to believe a person only has one inner voice that is hoovering in his deep consciousness all the time.
Another voice inside me, which I only realize its existence recently, is more subdued and passive. It keeps telling me: I don’t have to do if I do not want it; I don’t not have to own things the social pressure ordains and I don’t have to strain myself and be enslaved by the ‘do it’ voice inside my mind.
My readers may think I am advocating a let-go and quit-it philosophy, but I am not.
The idea is that if I am free of fear, financial concerns and my paranoia, then I will know better to live my life. Right now, I am more driven, rather than driving.
Then what do I want to do? I won’t share it here because a goal is better attained when it is kept secret. However, I can tell my readers that one of the major goals of 2010 has been achieved and I am going to continue working on this track.
Here are some words I want to say to myself.
- Concern less and put the mind at peace
- I don’t deserve more than what I do
- Have you fully lived your present life
- Feel the flow and flow with it
- Do less
What to do next year? Continue to run my business and lose some fat.